me and people| people and me

a. i was told to stop my nigger talk
yes I was affronted
yes it was ignorant
i want to give this person the benefit of the doubt...i have major reservations
who is this person that they feel they can dictate to me my chosen form of speech at any point in time?
ugh audacity.
i asked for a seperate opinion and was told to 'ignore them' (something like this has happened before)

b. my coworkers have been snitching and making me look bad at work
i'm torn between really eally really needing this job or going back to my indifference which i believe is the true source
of me getting in trouble

c. I miss the tenous connection i had overseas. I feel very betrayed, disrespected and even worse I still haven't
gotten my stuff back. T tried to tell me it's not purposeful but still no stuff. I was tempted to try again to talk it out
but without the stuff I can't believe the genuineness of anything said.

d. my bestest buddy came through i lub her and miss her i don't think i've seen her in months. I m happy for her though she seems to be disconnecting from the current ass (nice dude the situation has been unbearable though) and found another dude who seems decent

e. tonight i've been blog surfing, fascinating stuff and has taken up too much of my night...er morning, heh.

f. i want a relationship. i have no idea how to go about one, never had one. I got lucky the first time out the box intimately speaking he is still a cool person in my eyes but haven't worked on the friendship, this may wprk because i don't think i'm attracted to him anymore.