Newbie

mkay i'm new at this.
not sure if i have much to get off my chest
and if it'll will be recieved in the way i intend it to be
but such is life
right?
...
guess i'll start with some confessions
i've developed an online crush
over the past few months
he's such a sweetie
it's been hard not to
aside from the fact that he's yummy
this shall pass
...
i'm still getting over my activities from last year.
i did alot
alot was done to me
i'm getting over taking three months
wow...three months
off to recuperate and be ready for the world
with a new game plan.
...
i've spent way too much money ~ in turn put myself in a hole that i've dug out of but have also take out a chunk of myself. the repercussions will echo for years to come. school for example...will i get enough of a loan to go back?
i've eatten way too much to avoid
emotions. ~ i'm at my highest weight ever, it sucks.
i've numbed myself to the world.
i shop way too much ~ to satisfy my diva quality, it's hard to say that i'm a pretty humble self depreciating person but i should face the fact that i dress to impress... me. my clothes and shoe collection would put most women and transvestites to shame
i do too much to please others ~ i love my parents dearly but it's time to stop...its difficult
i collect more people than needed. ~ it's time to create a more solid group of dependable people, i have a very good collection to pick from


that's all for now
i just realized i have a procrastination thing as well
and that's why i've suddenly decided to blog
ugh


LOL